An adonis on the block!

So I came home from work today and had plans to go to the gym later. When I got home, I had beat my mom and I decided to wait until she got home so that I could park behind her in the driveway. I had pulled up in front of my neighbor's house and was sitting there, waiting for my mom to get home.

As I was waiting, I noticed this guy running a little distance away. Jokingly, I was like, please God, let him be shirtless and as he got closer, I realized that he was. He had the most amazing body! He wasn't extremely ripped, but he had a nice upper chest going and a flat stomach with a hint of a six pack. It seriously was a vision! I stared at him from the moment he was around the bend and in line with my car. He ran around my car and of course passed right by my window. If I only had the balls to reach out of my window .... Oh I totally would reached for him!

I was actually tempted to stop him to ask him if he runs a lot... I have been seriously looking for a running mate for quite some time now and I was so tempted to ask him, but of course, I chickened out. I also thought that it was a bit weird to have a complete stranger stop you, while you're running, to talk. LOL

Oh well ... well guess where I will be tomorrow around the same time? LOL .... Ohhhh... I wish I was out and had a hot lover and boyfriend! ... lol

Such a hot picture!

I am so turned on! Holy!

Seriously!? No More!

Ok ... so earlier in the year, I was running off to a class in the city that my company was paying for and it was like 6:00AM and I was about to run up the stairs to catch a train, when I heard "Excuse me sir" and as I turned around, there was a kid standing there that I had graduated high school with. Mark, as he will be known, is a Jehovah's Witness and he was about to start his speech when he realized it was me. He was all friendly and was like "Heyyyy Jared! Wow! It's been a while... " blaah blaah blaah ... So I told him how I had to catch the train and that I'd see him later ... I was never best friends with him, but we made nice in high school ... honestly, I was nice to everyone and got along well with everyone ...

Anyway ... cut to like a month or two later ... I'm running into Panera for lunch and there he is with his posse, taking their lunch break from their door to door service. I said hello again and left it at that ... small talk and nothing more ...

Now, one of my besties happens to be a JW and she is part of his congregation. Now, for the record, I have nothing against them at all. The only reason I mention this is because of how that mere fact is a connection to this whole story ...

Anyway.. so I had called my friend Heather and had told her ... how funny is it that I've run into Mark so many times this year and I haven't seen this kid in like 6 years... so now cut to me walking into work from lunch and there he is, sitting there in our lobby, dressed in a suit. I, again, make small talk as I wait for the elevator to arrive and shake his hand and he tells me he's interviewing for a position there. I'm like, holy crap!

So of course, I had to call Heather right away and tell her. I just thought it was so weird that this happened. So anywho ... I wasn't aware that Heather and Mark had a past of some sorts, but it never worked out because he was (and still is) quite immature. So the day turns to night and while at home, I got a text from Heather, asking if it was ok for her to give Mark my cell number. I said sure and like 15 minutes later, she calls me all pissed off. She's like, he's such an ass... omg! So I jokingly said to her, why don't the two of you just get married already?

She was like - HELL NO! He's such an immature ass. He thinks that because you told me that you ran into him, that you're into him and that he thinks you're gay.

I was like, WHAT!? So she goes on to say how he's full of himself and all this bullshit. She proceeds to say that how I'm a nice guy and he just thinks that anyone that is nice is into him ... all this bullshit to make me feel better ...

To be honest, I wasn't pissed off at first, but then it was like the straw that broke the camel's back... First I had the encounter with Steve and Mike... Mike thought I was gay because I didn't try with any of the girls at the bar that night ... first of all, yeah ... I am kind of gay ... girls can turn me on, but just can't get me off ... well at least I haven't tried ...

But anyway ... I'm no man whore that looks for numbers. If I found the "right" girl, I would definitely try it out, but goodness gracious! There was nothing there ... he didn't even hook up ... so what the fuck!?

Secondly ... I am not exactly a god, like Mike or Steve ... I am insecure with myself and it's something I have to work through! Plain and simple ...

And now, because I am just being friendly and nice, you go and make that assumption!? You know what!? Fuck you and fuck anyone else that thinks that of me. You want me to be an asshole to you? Well fine! I hope you can deal with what I'm about to dish out! You're going to be the fucking stock boy, so you'd better bring me paper when I request it, otherwise I will complain to your manager, mother fucker!

I am seriously done being the nice guy. Fuck everyone at this point! I hate my boss, she's a bitch and she's got it coming to her as well. I am just so very done ... I am going to sign up for some Yoga once this summer session is done and I'm going to meditate my stress away! Would you believe that I found 3 gray hairs!? THREE!?!?!? I'm fucking 24! What the hell!?!?!?!?!?

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRgggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I'll throw in some DRAMA absolutely FREE!

So if you haven't noticed, posts about Steven has become more and more sparse, and with good reason. I've basically stopped hanging out with him. Not by choice, so much, but mainly because of him. He has become so distant, that I've just stopped bothering.

I really don't know what his problem is, but since the day I decided to tell him that I was "bi", he has never been the same since. I seriously think that he's afraid of hanging out with me alone because he thinks that I may pounce on him or something. Whenever we need to "hang out," Mike is always invited to tag along. It's a bit ridiculous, but whatever.

I texted him the other day, asking him if he'd be interested in spending the weekend out east in the Hamptons. I purposely commented in the text saying that he doesn't have to worry about it just being me and him because Mike will be back by then and he'd probably come with. He didn't respond to that comment at all. He said how he had plans to go to Fire Island with some people and he'd let me know.

Honestly... I wasn't looking for anything out of this, except to just spend the weekend in the Hamptons with my friends. I'd go alone, but how boring is that? Plus, I don't want to be some lonesome loser out there. I just wanted to go, enjoy the beaches, the town, maybe a little nightlife. I don't know...

Well anyway ... It's come to the point that if I don't text him, he doesn't text me. Then randomly, I'll get a text message about him "dying to hang out" with me and all this bull shit. I've decided to follow in Dina's footsteps on The Real Housewives of New Jersey and remove the negative people and negative things out of my life. That, including Steven. If he contacts me, I'll play nice and I will always be respectful to his family, but things are different now ...

A worthy blog

So while in search for Colton Haynes, I stumbled upon this blog,  Caramelitos Varoniles. There are a lot of hot photos, random hotties that you've never heard of, like Colton, and there are some Futbol (Soccer) players on there too... I plan to spend some time on this website! :)

Check it out!
http://caramelitosbaronil.blogspot.com/

Mixed feelings ..

So I watched Drop Dead Diva tonight and I must say, it continues to be such a good show. I think that Jane's character has become a bit cocky, but I still love it. I just wish there was a beach party and Greyson would just be completely shirtless, or even better ... just nude! :) Totally rockin' the birthday suit ... wouldn't mind ... just a little suggestion to the producers ... I'll have my people call your people ... love it! :)

Anyway ... back to reality ... well the reality of ABC's Summer Sundays ... I'm mixed. I watched the premiere of Scoundrels and it was really good. I liked it a lot and thought it was an awesome pilot episode. I can't wait for next week...

As for The Gates ... ugh ... where do I begin? I honestly thought it was going to be some type of murder/mystery kind of show, but instead it's another Twilight knockoff. Seriously people!? Can't we think of anything else besides Vampires and Werewolves!? Come on! They even have their own rendition of Taylor Lautner ... Some hot piece of ass newbie named Colton Haynes. I never heard of or seen him before this, but oye papi! he's hot! I did some digging and there's a photo of him floating around with him and some other guy. They're both quite the French in the photo and let me just say ... I'm quite turned on! He's 21 (on his way to 22) and holy crap! I've learned that the key to success is to have a six pack! Holy shit!!  Just take a look below...

Anyway ... so with the exception of this hottie, it's another dumb story about werewolves and vampires. It turns out that Hottie McFuckMe (pictured above) is a werewolf in the show ... ** COUGH COUGH TAYLOR LAUTNER *** ---

Anywho ... I guess I'll give it a second chance, since it's set to DVR and since I have some eye candy ... ;) -- What do you think of their new shows? Worthy?

So many things ... but this first

So as I crawled into bed, I decided to set my TV up properly to wake me up at 6:30, instead of my weekend schedule of 10:00 .. :) -- and I tuned to Fox 5-1 (HD) and much to my surprise was Rent. I was so excited because I had turned it on just in time for "La Vie Bohème" and I hadn't seen the movie in a while. The song started off and then all of a sudden, it was cut after cut after cut. I mean, yes, the song is a bit raunch but, um, hello!? it's RENT!??!?!!?!

Ugh ... I was so appalled that I just turned it off ... no "dildo" or "mucho masturbation" ... WTF!? Ugh ...

So a quick Glee recap and then tonight's events

So I am sure that my fellow Gleeks out there watched the season finale. I literally cried from the beginning to the end. I am so happy that this show came about and has become so successful. It's such a great show and it allows me to escape my harsh realities for an hour. I dream to be one of those actors on the show ever so much. Can you imagine waking up every morning and your job is to go and be a part of that show? Sing to your heart's content and just love every moment of it all! I can only dream and imagine! :)

So anyway ... as for tonight ... I went to my friend's recital and it was amazing. I was surprised to see that there were actually 3 teenage/older guys in the show. There was two younger boys, around maybe 12 or 13 ... they were cute and amazing dancers ... but the older ones ... they seem more like 16 or 17 ... they were hot and boy could they move! Of course I had to control myself, but holy cow! They were amazing ... they were no larger a tree branch ... literally ... they look like a size 20 or something ... ridiculous! They were awesome though ... talk about high jumps, grace ... just the whole package ...

I was actually sitting there, watching them perform and I thought how it must be so nice to be so open about your passion for dancing. It's not exactly well looked upon by society for guys to be in shows like that ... of course everyone assumes that you're gay "to be moving like that." It takes a lot of balls to go up and perform in front of a huge crowd and takes even bigger balls to perform a solo. I am telling you ... I am green with envy of those boys ... Granted I fit the stereotype of male dancers (being gay and all), but they have to have amazing parents. My parents would say it was gay and make me do something else ...


Oh well ... off to clean my room and then my bed ... got God-awful work in the morning ..