A place I never want to go again!

So recently, I went to a deep, dark place which I didn't like at all.

As you all have read, I seriously was hating on life. I was so consumed with negative energy that I was the most bitter thing known to man! I just couldn't deal with life anymore. The stress at work is what I think pushed me over the edge. School has been so demanding, hell - LIFE is just too demanding.

I seriously was hating on the world and if you know me, I am NEVER like that. I may bitch, but that is all that it really is. I am seriously a happy, go lucky, overly gay (no pun intended) type of guy. It's just that I think that as much as I fought it, I had lost the battle and most definitely felt defeated.

I had felt like the world was shitting on me no matter where I ran for cover. All my alleged friends made plans with me and canceled or they made plans and never included me. My parents were not helping the situation and I honestly had no one to turn to. I had recognized how negative I had become and luckily stopped myself from getting too sucked into that energy. I had time to reflect a bit over the weekend. I had to drive to Connecticut with my parents and ended up having the hour and a half drive back home to myself. I did a lot of reflecting and thinking and just cleared my mind.

I ended up going out on Tuesday for this girl's 21st birthday. It was local, but still fun. This entire week is spring break for me and for once, I am feeling my age! I went out a few times this week and Steve and Mike came over yesterday and we just had dinner at my house. I had stopped my desperate attempts to hang out with them and believe it or not, they pretty much invited themselves over and I cooked. We had a good time and that was that.

I decided to do what I was always been taught to do, which is to accept people for who they are. Steve and Mike may seem not to want to hang out with me, yet they invited themselves over once I stopped trying. I don't know - they're weird to say the least. At this point, I'm not going to get all hellbent out of shape over it. It is what it is. When I finally get to move out and possibly away, it won't matter. When they get married (and maybe me too), it won't matter.

It is what it is and with that said, happy Friday readers! Go out and enjoy your day - The weather is supposed to be beautiful on the east coast!