Ok ... so I got over the whole situation from my last post. Steve has a cabin in the Poconos and Mike, Steve, Steve's brother Vinny, and myself all went to spend the weekend there.
It was a lot of fun and Saturday night, we all went out into Stroudsburg and got plastered. Apparently I was hitting the liquor a bit too hard because I kissed Steve on the cheek. Mike apparently saw it and now they're contemplating I'm gay.
Itried very hard to justify this and I am literally texting him as I type this ... I am so fucked ... I semi-outed myself ... I can't fucking believe this ... I'm going to dig a deep hole and bury myself in it... and never return!!
Basically what happened in a nutshell ... I apparently grabbed Mike's ass and kissed Steve on the cheek and totally fucking outed myself. I just admitted to Steve via text that I am "bi" --- I seriously want to cry ... I have a feeling that Steve isn't telling me everything. I am so embarassed ... I am on the verge of crying.
Steve is being really cool with it, but I seriously can't ever face him or Mike again. God help me if I did anything to his brother. I can't remember anything and I seriously can't hang out with either of them ever again. I am so embarassed in so many different ways.
Steve decided to try and be funny and say that I kissed Mike too ... I seriously melted in embarrassment when he said that. I seriously wanted to literally pick up and move to another country! He claims to be joking, but I don't know if he's kidding or not ... I can't remember!
OMG! I'm going to cry and then disappear! OMG! OMG! OMG!
Sunday, March 07, 2010
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STOP stressing out over this and just laugh! You're not going to gain anything by stressing out and acting like this is the end of the world. I'm sure u enjoyed ur little peck and ass grab! LOL... I had this married drunk guy kissing me and licking my ears in Vancouver last weekend as we were all partying the end of the Olympics. He is a friend of a friend and his wife was gone on a business trip. We were all drinking and it got crazy; he all of a sudden comes over and pecks me on this lips. I thought "ok whatever, it was nothing".. then, later on he comes by again and starts licking my ears.. LOL... then later, he comes by and instead of pecking my lips, he starts with his tongue.. HA HA HA.. I figured I might as well have some fun, so I responded and we made out for a little bit right there in front of everybody. It was hilarious! Just laugh it off and stop making excuses and forget about it buddy.
AL
Do not beat yourself up over this. Many of us have experiences like that when we've had too much to drink. Shit happens. In a day or two you'll realize you can't change the past and you'll begin to move on. I'm not pointing fingers, but it seems your friends have been sending mixed messages to you. In the moment, with the help of "liquid encouragement" kissing and grabbing/groping didn't seem out of place. Stand tall, walk proud and hold your head up. You have no reason to be ashamed.
Thanks al & tim ... I really appreciate it. I just can't believe that it all happened!
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