So much in common...

So I ended up hanging out with Mike tonight. Me, him and Steve were supposed to all hang out, but Steve flaked on us. He supposedly went to hang out with some of his other friends that me and Mike aren't so thrilled about.

So anyway ... Mike and I hung out at his house. We watched The Invention of Lying as well as The Blind Side. Afterwards, we turned on the cable and had it on in the background while we talked. We talked about life, growing up, our ideals, inspirations, plans for life... a whole lot.

I realized that I'm not the only one currently satisfied where I am in life at the moment. Mike is really bugged out by it as well. He doesn't know what exactly he wants to do with his life and he's desperate for a girlfriend and not necessarily wants to settle down but is willing to. He hates his job and wants to move out of his house.

I guess I thought that I was the only one feeling the same way and quite frankly I found some relief to know that I am not the only one.

Honestly, I never pictured myself where I am right now. I barely have a savings and I work full time and I go to school. I still live at home and there is not one possiblility of me moving out, well unless I come out and get a sugar daddy, which we know ain't happening! LOL

I will admit to one and only one regret in life and that is I regret being a naive teen and racking up a serious credit card bill that fucked me over royally. I killed my credit before I could establish it and now I have to try so hard to rebuild it. I can't get a loan even if I wanted. I'm stuck at home and stuck at my job until I finish my degree. I got really depressed the other day. I reflected and seriously got bugged out.

In 4 years will be my high school reunion and I was hoping to have so much accomplished by then and I am seriously no where near any of those plans. I don't know ... It seems like nothing I planned is anywhere near my future.

It's ridiculous, but I am happy to know I'm not the only one going through this. He opened up to me tonight and I actually liked him so much more after our conversation tonight, on so many different levels.

Well it's almost 4AM ... I should get some sleep -- I did get a snow day today and shoveled for the majority of the day. Never got caught up with my DVR.... I could've tonight, but decided to spend the time with Mike. I have no regrets about that decision .. :)

Well good night world ...

xoxo,
J