Holy woah!

So I forgot that I had subscribed to a few Yahoo! Groups and I haven't checked the e-mail address that I had subscribed in a really long time. I logged in and there were over 3,000 message! It's absolutely insane! I have been watching movies and clearing them up. I'm now down to 1450 ... but I had to stop to post this hottie! There was a whole series of him, but this has to be my favorite photo!! Enjoy ... it's HIGH resolution, so click on it to see it in it's full glory!! ;)

xoxo

Ryan Wilson

I have the urge to buy a Mitsubishi

Lynn Kegan

Thanks to "Countervail" here are some more photos from another blog of the ever so hot... Lynn Kegan

No more Woo Hoo! :(

Well the rate that things are going, I am scared for the future. Everything is just going down and now even my bank!! Ironically, I am thankful that I am no millionaire or anything remotely close to that, so my very little bit I have is fully insured by the government ... you know, up to $100,000 .... again... my very LITTLE is safe...

But in all honesty, I am seriously concerned with our economy. It's scary that I recently got a raise, yet can't see myself through... I'm still living paycheck to paycheck! It's just so depressing to think about it and that's why I try not to.

As busy as my schedule is... as I had expressed in my previous post, I am seriously contemplating a second job. I need to get all my bills paid and I need to shred all my credit cards, cancel all my online accounts, and just live with the bare necessities! I have been tossing the idea of a second job around for quite some time. I hope that I can pay off everything and finally start saving more money.

Anyway... moving far away from that whole episode... I am going back to being worried about the economy. We're in serious danger people.

I am no politician nor do I endorse the concept of politics. In fact, the thought of it just disgusts me. It's such a dark place in the world... but anyway... The only thing that I am going to say is this....

After one Bush, it took a democrat to clean up his mess. Now after 8 years of another Bush, another democrat is now required to pick up the pieces. I do have my concerns about Obama, but at this point, I can't stand another 4 years of Republican rule.

For the record, I have classified myself as a "bleeding heart" liberal. I am a registered democrat. But either way... demo. or repub. those US citizens that read this blog, if you're of legal age and you haven't already registered to vote, PLEASE do so! This year's election is one for the history books. Make a difference and then tell your grandchildren that you made that piece of history happen... but before you do, let's see how our elected official does... ;)

xoxo

Yesterday...

So yesterday was just a crappy day... Things are becoming more and more demanding at work as our deadline approaches for the launch of some new websites. We attempted to launch one and let's just say we encountered problems.

I'm back in school, attempting to pull my GPA up so I won't get kicked out. School has become more demanding as well ... A lot more is due and has to be handed in. Understanding the concept of Calculus II and computer programming is quite hard when you're trying to get through work as well.

I just went to the doctor recently b/c of an ear infection and found out that my cholesterol is "a bit" high and now I have to start Lipitor. Ironically, I went in for an ear infection almost a year ago and was diagnosed with diabetes, type II.

I seriously am speechless as to where I have taken a turn in life. Everything just seems to be going down hill and there is no detour or side roads. It's just one thing to the next... I seriously feel like my heart is ready to give up. I learned that cholesterol leads to clogged arteries and I honestly feel that my arteries are closing up sometimes. It's the strangest feeling, but then it goes away.

I don't know what it is... is it the stress from work? School? life in general? I honestly don't know! I am just feeling run down and there has been numerous occasions in the past 2 weeks that I have just passed out as early as 8pm ... Should I be worried?... am I just stressing myself out?

I don't know anymore... I just want to cry but never do... I feel like I want to die, but not really... what the hell is going on with me? The other day I was driving and listening to a song and I started crying.. while driving! I remember saying ... "What the f* is wrong with me... I'm like a woman!! Why am I crying!?"

I had no explanation for it... it just happened and then passed, like a storm. I don't know what is going on!!!!!!

Welcome back TV shows...

So last night was the premiere of: The Big Bang Theory, How I Met Your Mother, Two and a Half Men, and Heroes ... I guess it goes without saying that I am beyond tired, staying up until 2AM to watch all the shows on my DVR .... I am so excited that the new seasons are starting!! There's a new House tonight and NCIS is premiering too! Yey for the shows!!!

Does anyone else watch these shows?

New episode of GG

Wow is all I can say about last night's episode of GG ... first and foremost Serena and Dan need to get over each other. Serena needs to stop being a bitch and stop playing games. They're over and that's that.

Secondly... Lord F me hard was caught with his step mother ... doing the dirty in the library.... hot! Oh... and wrong!! He should be doing me!! LOL .... I think he's super cute and his british accent is absolutely dapper! He's actually 27 and from Florida, but who cares... he's hot!! I want him!! :)

I have to say that I'm surprised that there wasn't much on the Internet about the Lord (real name: Patrick Heusinger) at all. I searched IMDB and across Google and found nothing!! I'm disappointed... we need a shirtless photo or something!

OMG - Have I become that guy, only obsessed with the looks of guys? Honey, don't kid yourself... we're all THAT guy ... ;)

Here are two screen caps that I found on the Internet... (justjared.com)

Time for a change...

So since Autumn or Fall is on it's way and the summer is nearing it's end for 2008, I decided that it was time for a change on ACGB ... so if you haven't noticed, I changed around the colors and graphics... what do you think? Like? Dislike? Take a vote to the right!!

PS: How delicious is this photo? You can see cock outline!! (He was going to be my header boy, but I liked the one that I picked more)

Click to enlarge ... super high-resolution

Interesting topic from Stratis

So I was on my favorite blog and Stratis, the writer, wrote a blog entry regarding AIDS. I must say that I understand what he goes through waiting for the results of his tests. I don't "do it" often or with a wide array of guys... when it happens, it tends to be with some "regulars" and we're always safe. I never had a reason to test myself, thankfully, but since I recently became a diabetic, my doctor is always performing multiple blood tests on me. My endocrinologist, the diabetes specialist, always checks my blood for diabetic-related issues, but my regular family doctor checks for all other problems.

I went this past Saturday to my regular doctor because of an ear ache. It turned out it was an ear infection and I got my antibiotics, but at the same time, he withdrew blood from me to send in for testing. I have been awaiting the test results all week and they finally called tonight. I missed the call, so I will have to wait until I get into work tomorrow to call them back.

I have a follow-up with my regular doctor again on Saturday, so I'm crossing my fingers that nothing more has happened. My parents combined have: high blood pressure, chloestrol problems, thyroid problems, diabetes, and the list goes on. I have been a bit fatigued recently, mainly because of the lack of sleep (notice it's like 1:00AM as I write this) ... but my mom told me to ask the doctor about my thyroids. I really don't want to because, god forbid, that I do have a thyroid problem, that means more pills to be popping and to add that to my regular twice-daily shot and 2 different diabetic pills... ughhh!!

Imagine, I'm only 22 and already on so many things!! I shouldn't complain though... I heard that the middle Jonas brother has Type 1 diabetes, which is worse, but he's not being held back... so why should I?

Eh... anyway... If you're having sex, safe or not, go get tested. It's ALWAYS better to be safe than sorry! If you're currently living through it, may God bless you everyday! I respect you so much for living your life to the fullest!

OMFG!

So a friend of the family, who is this super hot Italian Stallion, was having computer problems and he asked me to look at his computer. I had to wipe it clean, since it was a bad virus, but he asked if I could back up his files. So I did.

As I was waiting for his computer to reload Windows, I decided to peek around in his files. I found a few nudey shots of his current love interest. Close ups of her choch and whatnot ... so once I found those, I figured there would have to be at lease one cock shot... well after EXTENSIVE digging, I couldn't find any. I was really upset... I was really hoping to see this guys cock.

All of a sudden, I opened up this one folder and there was a shit load of videos. One of them looked like there was a cock in it. When I opened up the first one, it was him installing a hidden camera in his bathroom. The next one was him adjusting it, then there was just him wiping his ass... and finally, the fourth one was gold. It was him pissing... I am not into piss or any of that stuff, but just the mere fact to see his cock drove me to that place... instant boner and then the 5th video was him finishing up his piss and then shaking it all over the place, playing with it and then tucking it away. I am in heaven! It's everything I imagined and then some.. lol ...

I would be one to share it, but you can see his face in it ... so I can't do that... but if I can get a screen cap of just the cock, I will post it. Man-o-man .. did I ever want to offer a BJ to him tonight when he came to pick up his laptop... just get on my knees while he sat back on my couch and give it to him!!! Ohhh!!!

Remember always, never forget

Today is a day that one can never forget, as much as one may like to. This day always comes hard to everyone. I feel it's especially hard for those who reside in New York. New York was the one state with the most major damage by the events both emotionally and physically.

It's now been seven years and as I turn on the morning news, as I always do, I am reminded of the tragic events that occurred that day. Even now, it seems so surreal. I still can't believe that the events of that day actually happened.

I must say that I am blessed for not losing anyone on that tragic day. I remember my heart sinking that very day. Both my parents work in the city. My father, a construction supervisor, was working in the WTC towers the week before. He's always all over the city and I didn't know where he was. My mother worked across the water, directly from the WTC towers.

I recall walking into my 11:00 4th period class and my teacher trying to comfort us, saying "There is no reason to panic." ... I stupidly had asked why should we be worried. and he looked at me and didn't respond. I didn't know why, but I jumped on the Internet and began googling and only then had I realized what had happened. I immediately pulled my phone out and began calling my parents. The only thing that I heard on the other end was "beep beep beep, All circuits are busy. Please try your call again." No matter how many times I called, that's all I heard. I almost began to cry and then I decided to call home and I was reliefed to hear my mother's voice. I had asked her where my father was and he told me that he was home as well. Thankfully, they were able to get back out to Long Island...

Shortly after, much chaos began in school. A lot of students were panicing because they couldn't contact their parents. Before I knew it, I was on a bus, heading back home to be with my family. I just remember logging onto AIM at home and talking to my friends in total disbelief as we watched the coverage live.

Now, every year when this time comes, I wish not to relive it, but being a fellow New Yorker, it's hard not to. I can't help but watch the memorial ceremonies every year on TV. I can't bring myself to EVER to go there, but I never miss the coverage. In fact, right now, as I am typing this, I am at work, watching the coverage live on Fox 5's website. My mother says all the time, that she wishes that they would stop these ceremonies, because it just brings back the horrific memories. I agree with her, but at the same time I know that we can't ever forget.

As the news anchor said this morning, I will never forget and will always remember. I just wish not to relive it ever year.

As always, we pause for a moment of silence when the first tower was hit, the second tower was hit, when the first tower collapsed, and when the second tower collapsed. At every moment of silence, they ring a bell. As I hear that bell toll, I get shivers throughout my body. To many, it's just a noise, but to me, it represents death and all things evil. Maybe it's just me, but I can't help but get the shivers.

So as I watch the ceremonies and hear all the names of those who have passed on, I cry and wish their families peace. I also begin to think of all those who sleep in ditches every night protecting our country since the day of these events. The lives lost at war and the brave men and women who are still out there fighting. Thank you to those who are out there fighting and welcome home to those lucky ones who have made it back. To those who lost their lives on September 11th or during this horrible war, may God bless your souls and may you rest in peace!

Never forget!

A sad farewell...

So I don't know who has heard, but the final curtain for RENT was on September 4, 2008. For those who haven't seen the musical and/or movie, I must tell you that you have to rent the movie.

RENT has been nicknamed the "AIDS Musical," the "Gay musical," amongst others... but to me, it's just another well-written musical by a great man. For those who don't know, Jonathan Larson, the creator of RENT had passed away the night of his opening curtain call from an undiagnosed aortic aneurysm.

His musical has touched so many people, including myself. It is the most inspirational musical/movie that I have seen. I actually saw the musical twice and I own the movie on DVD. I was so upset that I couldn't get tickets to the final curtain, but it was out of my control. I learned that the "Life Cafe" in the musical is an actual real place and I hope to visit it soon.

Well anyway... Thank you to Jonathan Larson, may he rest in peace, for bringing such a great show. Every time I think I have it bad, I just put on the RENT soundtrack and listen to it and think of the message and then things get better.

Thank you Jonathan, thank you!

Happy September & Congrats to me and my 100th Post!!

So I finally made it to 100 posts! I know that practically no one cares, but I surely do! This is a big accomplishment for me! I actually made a commitment to something and stuck to it. In all honesty though, I find blogging to be a bit more therapeutic. To me it's a place where I can come and say what I need to say without anyone knowing that I said what I had to say! Confusing? Sorry!!

Anyway... September is here. August has rushed on by and now it's time for back to school! This does include me, since a new semester at college begins, and I am registered for two classes. Two may not be a lot, but with my schedule, it's all that I can handle.

I am quite excited to announce that my DVR is back in service, thanks to new episodes of my favorite TV shows! For example, tonight was the premiere of Gossip Girl! I forgot about it and had to end up watching it later on. I must say that I wasn't as impressed as I had thought I would've been. It was blaahh... I totally forgot that S & Lonely boy had broken up. I do happen to think that B's new b/f is super cute and beyond sexy with that accent of his. He's a lord? Well I'd love to be his whatever ... slave? haha! If you have no clue as to what I'm talking about, then you need to watch Gossip Girl.

Now that I just totally gabbed like a 13 year old girl over Gossip Girl ... I'd like to move on.. LOL

As for my serious episode that I had earlier in the summer... It, of course, had just died down. My cousin came and hugged me and said hello to me at a family party and I guess, me, being the better person, accepted it. He is such a fucking asshole!

Well contrary to popular belief, my parents have now finally realized how much of an ass he is and we have learned that his "wife" isn't exactly Mother Theresa either. Long story short the bitch told the bastard that we had demanded something from her and the bastard obviously believed her and started telling other members of the family this bullshit. So now my mother and father have FINALLY realized that they're both asses and have decided to give up on them.

My brother-in-law, whom I hadn't really liked, just added more to my list of reasons as to why I hate him. He made a big ass stink at a family gathering the other night. It was so bad that my mother refuses to talk to him unless he apologizes. She also made it clear that she wasn't going to their house until said apology is made. I think my dad gave up on my sister as well, especially since our neighbor watches our niece and they never come to our house.

So with that said... that's the drama in my life. I can't wait until I can afford to move to California! Far far away!!

ANYWAY... I really wanted to do something cool to commemerate my 100th post, like have a giveaway or something, but right now I am dirt poor. My gas tank is literally on E and I have no means of filling it up. I pray that money comes my way soon!

I keep trying to save and get ahead, but it never works out right! I am 22 years old and I have been working since I was 17 ... I have nothing to show for it! It's so sad!

BUT ... before I get into that saga ... let's just move on and end this post on a happy note.

I will eventually have some type of raffle... maybe for my 125th post... We shall see...

Well I hope that everyone enjoyed their summer. For my fellow New Yorkers, I hope you cherish every last second of warm weather. I believe that this winter is going to be a bitch! I hope that the cost of oil goes down, otherwise I may freeze to death!!

Anal beads...

So I purchased these exact anal beads a while back, but never got around to using them. I should remind you that I live with some extremely conservative parents, whom if they found out their only child was gay and further more, was using such things as anal beads, they'd probably kill me.

Anyway, so I had these bad boys tucked away nicely in my closet. I finally got the opportunity to use them today and let me just say, AMAZING! I think I prefer them to my 8 inch dildo. I felt so much pleasure from them! I can't explain it, but I recommend that you get them.

I started small and went to medium and eventually to the larger ones. I was so into it that I even doubled up on them. After getting the larger ones in, I attempted to push the other two in together, at the same time. With great success, I was working it. I most definitely would recommend it to anyone!