well talk about being busy! I've been so insanely busy with work, that when I come home I just want to pass out. I FINALLY celebrated my completion of my sabbatical yesterday! It was amazing, but oh so quick... I was so tired, that I almost didn't bother. If it wasn't for the popping woods at work, I probably would've just said "forget about it!"
Anyway... It was quite amazing. I made a bit of a mess, but I had expected that! haha!
I have some family staying over and my younger cousin is sleeping in my room... so with that said, let's say that playing around is out of the question. The last thing I need is to be caught by my 13 year old cousin, whom is a horny little bastard! haha!!
Anywhos... I'm going to satisfy myself in the privacy of our bathroom... :)
I hope all is well out there in the Internet world!
xoxo,
J
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Well its finally over.. but on a more serious note...
So my sabbatical is finally over... I can play once again... right now... I don't know.. I'm just beyond upset!
I went with my father yesterday on his company fishing trip. They chartered a boat and we left 9am and got back at 4pm. The only reason that my father asked me to go was so that my sister would say yes and let him take my niece. This may sound so wrong, but I now realize why I was asked after yesterday's events.
Basically, I spent the entire trip looking after my niece. I am apparently the responsible one and the only reason she was allowed to go was because I went. Long story short, she got sea sick, threw up on me, and I spent almost half of the trip covered in throw up. I had to get sprayed off with their sea water hose... I was halfway drenched and I had to lose my sneakers. Thankfully, I had packed some flip flops. My niece fell asleep on me and then I sat at the front of the boat with her on me until we got to shore.
Instead of going, my dad wanted to go back to his friends host for an after party. I really wanted to get myself and my niece cleaned up, but I had agreed. I told him that I would drop him off, go home, get cleaned up and come back. My cousin decided to insist that we just all go to the house. I gave in and we went. I cleaned up my niece and myself. Everyone went in the pool except me. I was uncomfortable and just didn't want to go in. We were there for over 2 hours. I was very tired and felt so disgusted.
I was in the house with the kids watching tv and playing with their kitten. Everything was fine. I got up to attempt to notion to my dad that I wanted to go home. Needless to say that the entire day consisted of drinking. From the boat to his friends house... it was all drinking. I had two Coronas on the boat but that was it. I had to drive so I didn't drink.
He had told me in a few more minutes. Those minutes turned into another hour. I got up again and notioned to him that I wanted to go home. In all honesty, I could've left, since I had my car, but I was trying to get my dad to leave as well. He was well past drunk and he really needed to come home.
As I was attempting to talk to my dad, my cousin said something to me, so I snapped back at him. I was really tired of his bullshit that I had been putting up with all day. I'm driving and following my dad's friend to his house and he's showing me photos on his phone that he took of one the "hot" mommies that was on the ship. We had passed her while driving and he was waving at her like the bigest pig I've ever met. He's married with child. I always here... "That's a man for you" but I'd like to believe that most men aren't such pigs, considering I am a man myself.
Anyway, after I snapped at him, he got up and walked up to my face and kept saying "we need to talk" and was attempting to push me off to the side of the house. I refused to move, so he's like "don't disrespect your father infront of everyone" - so I barked back "Shutup. You're the one embarassing and disrespecting him in front of his co-workers" -- It got to the point where my dad's boss had to step in between. I ended up grabbing my backpack and left. Said thank you and good day to everyone and left. I got to my car and my niece had followed behind me. I put her in my car, buckeled her up and drove off.
I had to get gas, so I found my way to a gas station. As I was there, my dad called me and asked me if I left. I told him yes and I wasn't going to put up with my cousin's shit. He told me on the phone that I was acting stupid and I almost hung up on him. He was so piss drunk that he was basically telling me that everything happened because of me. I was furious.
I went back to get them and my cousin goes into the back seat and already starts. Telling my father "You go in the front because I can't deal with this shit. I don't believe this." Toward me "Me and you are going to have a talk. Your niece is in the car and I won't say anything here" - I immediately barked baclk, "Well shut up then."
The entire car ride home, he's talking it up and whatever. He called my sister and my mother, pretending to be the golden boy. Telling my mother how he "misses her." What a fucking hippocrite! As we were nearing his house, he kept telling my father how him, my dad, me, and the rest of the "boys" are going to hang out in the city tonight.
We got to his house and my dad begins to get out. I asked him where he was going. He's like "I'm going in for a second" - I said that I was going to go home. I had no problem with him staying there. He could've been dropped off home by my cousin or I would've gone back for him.
My cousin got out of the car, left my car door open walked around to the front of my car and kicked it in rage. He then proceeded to my door to attempt to open it. I had locked it, so he banged my window really hard. That was what broke me. I got so pissed, told my niece to close the door. My dad was halfway out. I told him to close the door and I speeded off.
We took my niece home and I walked her in. She was upset and crying at the whole situation. I took her to my sister and began to explain the situation. My dad followed in and when my sister asked what he happend, he replied "I don't know" --- I was so upset, that I began crying. He was there for the whole FUCKING thing and he responded with "I don't know" -- Seriously!?!?
When I got home, I had at least expected my mother to understand my rage and me being upset. Instead, she replied with "Well you always talk down to your father" --- I couldn't believe that she didn't hear the whole story, yet she instantly blamed me.
My sister came over later to drop off my dad and her simple response was "Well you shouldn't have yelled at him"
For the record, I never once yelled at him, in front of anyone. When we were driving to take my niece home, he attempted to talk to me, but I was so furious, with the fear of saying something I would regret, I told him that I wasn't talking to him until we got home and my mother was there.
So basically... everyone just simply agreed with my cousin and condoned his actions. The one person who I had expected to understand shot me down instantly. The same cousin who is responsible for this current heartache had once harassed my sister to the point of crying. She had her time of the month and had went to the bathroom. I don't know how it had happened, but before she had flushed, the same cousin got into the bathroom and was "joking" around saying things like she left a tsunami in the toilet. He had his video camera and was filming her. He basically pushed her to the point of crying. He got my brother-in-law so pissed that a LITERAL fist fight broke out. It took the entire family to separate them. My niece was a about 4 years younger, so I grabbed her and literally shoved her in my truck that I had at that time. I grabbed my sister and put her in the back with my niece. The poor thing was crying so much! My dad and uncle pushed my brother-in-law into my passenger front seat and I sped off. When we got to their house, my sister ran up and hid all the car keys from him. He was so pisesd off thathe came back down stairs with the biggest knife possible and kept saying this was for my cousin.
I basically sat down the block in my car until like 3 or 4 am to make sure that my brother-in-law went to sleep it off and not somehow get the keys and leave.
So with all of that said, I had expected to have at least my sister understand, but apparently she didn't.
Another time, the same pig cousin somehow apparently made some sexual sinckers at another cousin on my mother's side and I don't know all of the details, but now they don't speak at all. He got his wife to turn on my cousin... I just can't.
I've come to the conclusion a very long time ago that alcohol is evil. It has done nothing but bring agony and pain in my family. On my 21st birthday, the drunken cousins that I have almost had a fist fight with my co-workers.
I have also come to the conclusion that every man in my family is a fucking pig. It dates back to my grandfather, father and his brothers. I won't get into their generation.
As for my cousins. I had one cousin take my friend back to his place and apparently they hooked up. When did this happen? On my graduation day. I had another cousin fool around with my best friend. She believed that she was dating him and he introduced his real girlfriend to me while he was fooling around with my friend. When did this happen? Christmas. The same best friend came out with me for one of my birthdays and we went to the said same cousins' house. (As you can tell, I am trying not to use names) My friend got kicked out of the club b/c she had a small bottle of vodka on her. I ended up leaving and missing Nina Sky's performance. We went back to my cousin's house and awaited his return. We ended up hanging out at his place. Long story short, we're in his room watching some movie. The two of them were feeling each other up under the covers, while I was sitting there. When did this one happen? Like I said, my birthday.
My family wonders why I don't have too many friends? Well they don't know about my friends, the many that I have, because of this.
I am just so done. I am so beyond being upset. I have really been thinking about moving FAR FAR away. Just disappear and lose all contact with my family. Let me just say... it's becomming more of my only option.
I have been seriously thinking and weighing my options. The only thing I can do is temporarily drop out of school, get a second job, and attempt to live on my own. I can't hold one job, pay my bills, and be able to live. I would need to get a second job. I am screwed royaly b/c of my credit, so I may end up paying a whole lot more than I would have to.
I can't anymore. I need to get out of this house and away from my family. It's so sad! I've seriously thought of changing my name legally! SERIOUSLY!
I went with my father yesterday on his company fishing trip. They chartered a boat and we left 9am and got back at 4pm. The only reason that my father asked me to go was so that my sister would say yes and let him take my niece. This may sound so wrong, but I now realize why I was asked after yesterday's events.
Basically, I spent the entire trip looking after my niece. I am apparently the responsible one and the only reason she was allowed to go was because I went. Long story short, she got sea sick, threw up on me, and I spent almost half of the trip covered in throw up. I had to get sprayed off with their sea water hose... I was halfway drenched and I had to lose my sneakers. Thankfully, I had packed some flip flops. My niece fell asleep on me and then I sat at the front of the boat with her on me until we got to shore.
Instead of going, my dad wanted to go back to his friends host for an after party. I really wanted to get myself and my niece cleaned up, but I had agreed. I told him that I would drop him off, go home, get cleaned up and come back. My cousin decided to insist that we just all go to the house. I gave in and we went. I cleaned up my niece and myself. Everyone went in the pool except me. I was uncomfortable and just didn't want to go in. We were there for over 2 hours. I was very tired and felt so disgusted.
I was in the house with the kids watching tv and playing with their kitten. Everything was fine. I got up to attempt to notion to my dad that I wanted to go home. Needless to say that the entire day consisted of drinking. From the boat to his friends house... it was all drinking. I had two Coronas on the boat but that was it. I had to drive so I didn't drink.
He had told me in a few more minutes. Those minutes turned into another hour. I got up again and notioned to him that I wanted to go home. In all honesty, I could've left, since I had my car, but I was trying to get my dad to leave as well. He was well past drunk and he really needed to come home.
As I was attempting to talk to my dad, my cousin said something to me, so I snapped back at him. I was really tired of his bullshit that I had been putting up with all day. I'm driving and following my dad's friend to his house and he's showing me photos on his phone that he took of one the "hot" mommies that was on the ship. We had passed her while driving and he was waving at her like the bigest pig I've ever met. He's married with child. I always here... "That's a man for you" but I'd like to believe that most men aren't such pigs, considering I am a man myself.
Anyway, after I snapped at him, he got up and walked up to my face and kept saying "we need to talk" and was attempting to push me off to the side of the house. I refused to move, so he's like "don't disrespect your father infront of everyone" - so I barked back "Shutup. You're the one embarassing and disrespecting him in front of his co-workers" -- It got to the point where my dad's boss had to step in between. I ended up grabbing my backpack and left. Said thank you and good day to everyone and left. I got to my car and my niece had followed behind me. I put her in my car, buckeled her up and drove off.
I had to get gas, so I found my way to a gas station. As I was there, my dad called me and asked me if I left. I told him yes and I wasn't going to put up with my cousin's shit. He told me on the phone that I was acting stupid and I almost hung up on him. He was so piss drunk that he was basically telling me that everything happened because of me. I was furious.
I went back to get them and my cousin goes into the back seat and already starts. Telling my father "You go in the front because I can't deal with this shit. I don't believe this." Toward me "Me and you are going to have a talk. Your niece is in the car and I won't say anything here" - I immediately barked baclk, "Well shut up then."
The entire car ride home, he's talking it up and whatever. He called my sister and my mother, pretending to be the golden boy. Telling my mother how he "misses her." What a fucking hippocrite! As we were nearing his house, he kept telling my father how him, my dad, me, and the rest of the "boys" are going to hang out in the city tonight.
We got to his house and my dad begins to get out. I asked him where he was going. He's like "I'm going in for a second" - I said that I was going to go home. I had no problem with him staying there. He could've been dropped off home by my cousin or I would've gone back for him.
My cousin got out of the car, left my car door open walked around to the front of my car and kicked it in rage. He then proceeded to my door to attempt to open it. I had locked it, so he banged my window really hard. That was what broke me. I got so pissed, told my niece to close the door. My dad was halfway out. I told him to close the door and I speeded off.
We took my niece home and I walked her in. She was upset and crying at the whole situation. I took her to my sister and began to explain the situation. My dad followed in and when my sister asked what he happend, he replied "I don't know" --- I was so upset, that I began crying. He was there for the whole FUCKING thing and he responded with "I don't know" -- Seriously!?!?
When I got home, I had at least expected my mother to understand my rage and me being upset. Instead, she replied with "Well you always talk down to your father" --- I couldn't believe that she didn't hear the whole story, yet she instantly blamed me.
My sister came over later to drop off my dad and her simple response was "Well you shouldn't have yelled at him"
For the record, I never once yelled at him, in front of anyone. When we were driving to take my niece home, he attempted to talk to me, but I was so furious, with the fear of saying something I would regret, I told him that I wasn't talking to him until we got home and my mother was there.
So basically... everyone just simply agreed with my cousin and condoned his actions. The one person who I had expected to understand shot me down instantly. The same cousin who is responsible for this current heartache had once harassed my sister to the point of crying. She had her time of the month and had went to the bathroom. I don't know how it had happened, but before she had flushed, the same cousin got into the bathroom and was "joking" around saying things like she left a tsunami in the toilet. He had his video camera and was filming her. He basically pushed her to the point of crying. He got my brother-in-law so pissed that a LITERAL fist fight broke out. It took the entire family to separate them. My niece was a about 4 years younger, so I grabbed her and literally shoved her in my truck that I had at that time. I grabbed my sister and put her in the back with my niece. The poor thing was crying so much! My dad and uncle pushed my brother-in-law into my passenger front seat and I sped off. When we got to their house, my sister ran up and hid all the car keys from him. He was so pisesd off thathe came back down stairs with the biggest knife possible and kept saying this was for my cousin.
I basically sat down the block in my car until like 3 or 4 am to make sure that my brother-in-law went to sleep it off and not somehow get the keys and leave.
So with all of that said, I had expected to have at least my sister understand, but apparently she didn't.
Another time, the same pig cousin somehow apparently made some sexual sinckers at another cousin on my mother's side and I don't know all of the details, but now they don't speak at all. He got his wife to turn on my cousin... I just can't.
I've come to the conclusion a very long time ago that alcohol is evil. It has done nothing but bring agony and pain in my family. On my 21st birthday, the drunken cousins that I have almost had a fist fight with my co-workers.
I have also come to the conclusion that every man in my family is a fucking pig. It dates back to my grandfather, father and his brothers. I won't get into their generation.
As for my cousins. I had one cousin take my friend back to his place and apparently they hooked up. When did this happen? On my graduation day. I had another cousin fool around with my best friend. She believed that she was dating him and he introduced his real girlfriend to me while he was fooling around with my friend. When did this happen? Christmas. The same best friend came out with me for one of my birthdays and we went to the said same cousins' house. (As you can tell, I am trying not to use names) My friend got kicked out of the club b/c she had a small bottle of vodka on her. I ended up leaving and missing Nina Sky's performance. We went back to my cousin's house and awaited his return. We ended up hanging out at his place. Long story short, we're in his room watching some movie. The two of them were feeling each other up under the covers, while I was sitting there. When did this one happen? Like I said, my birthday.
My family wonders why I don't have too many friends? Well they don't know about my friends, the many that I have, because of this.
I am just so done. I am so beyond being upset. I have really been thinking about moving FAR FAR away. Just disappear and lose all contact with my family. Let me just say... it's becomming more of my only option.
I have been seriously thinking and weighing my options. The only thing I can do is temporarily drop out of school, get a second job, and attempt to live on my own. I can't hold one job, pay my bills, and be able to live. I would need to get a second job. I am screwed royaly b/c of my credit, so I may end up paying a whole lot more than I would have to.
I can't anymore. I need to get out of this house and away from my family. It's so sad! I've seriously thought of changing my name legally! SERIOUSLY!
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Mike Rowe, Dirty Jobs
So I don't know if you've seen Dirty Jobs with Mike Rowe on the Discovery Channel or not, but I recently became a fan of the show. They had a mini-marathon Saturday night, so I stayed up and watched it until like 3am...
It is quite an interesting show. I find it extremely amusing to see where Mike will take us this hour. LOL - He has been in some interesting messes.
One of the more recent episodes that I saw, he decided to see where drains are made and to go and visit the warehouse where they're made. In the introduction, they shot him completely naked in a shower, showering off a serious mess. He was, of course, hiding his genitals behind the shower curtain, but you could see his "V-line" ... it was sooo hot!! So now, even more, I'm in love with him!
Just thought I'd share... ;)
PS: I notice that almost 80% of the men I am randomly attracted to are named Mike or Michael... strange, huh?
Just Found This!!
Monday, July 07, 2008
6 days and counting!
I am so horned up!! I can't wait for the six days to pass and then it's pure heaven!! I am looking on CL now for someone special to share it with... ! :) :) :)
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
Hairspray (2007) Movie
So I finally decided to watch Hairspray, starring Nikki Blonsky, Zac Efron, Amanda Bynes, James Marsden, Queen Latifah, Brittany Snow, Elijah Kelley, Michelle Pfeiffer, John Travolta, Christopher Walken... the list goes on!!
ANYWAY, Starz finally premiered it and I had DVRed it. I am a fan of Broadway, musicals, and all that jazz, but I didn't think that I would've cared for Hairspray at all. Boy was I wrong. I watched it, cried, downloaded the soundtrack off of iTunes, then went to Target and got the DVD!! LOL
I absolutely loved it. I loved the story line... just everything! I seriously want to pursue my dream of going on Broadway! LOL -- It's never going to happen, but I seriously want to at least try out for a part or something!!
I love to sing and dance, so why not? haha... just a dream!
Anyway... I'd highly recommend the movie! Funny thing... as I began to watch the movie, I remembered seeing parts of the original movie with Rikki Lake...!! Do you think that Nikki Blonsky is the next Rikki Lake??
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