The time of my life...

Ok... so maybe the title of this post is a bit ... over exaggerated... but I just recently hooked up with a guy and I had such a great time.

He is like 32 or 33 and hung like a horse! I went over to his place after work and we first started just talking. We were well into a 1/2 hours worth of conversation. Just totally cool and intellectual. Absolutely a nice change from the "hey" "hey" and then to sex! LOL

So we talked for a while and then he came and sat next to me... he said he wasn't sure how he'd approach me and before I knew it, we were making out. I had just left work, so he began unbuttoning my dress shirt. I felt so hot and sexy when he started to do that slowly. He basically had a tank on and some sweats... so there wasn't much to take off on him, so he had worked on me.

My shirt was the first thing... then socks... then he unbuttoned my pants and unzipped my zipper exposing my boxers and the tent that I pitched. Off came my pants and there I was... laying back on his couch in nothing but my boxers and under-shirt.

I, at this point, pushed him back and removed his tank. I then proceeded to remove his pants but had realized there was nothing left after that, so I left them on there until he was ready. I am a bottom, so I'm normally not the one in control, so I stepped back and let it be. We finally got my clothes completely off and as he removed my Tommy's, I attacked his sweats, completely exposing his horse-hung dick.

I began sucking on it and the usual foreplay and before I knew it... he was all condomed up and ready for invasion! So without further delay, I opened up my port hole and happily received my shipment! ;)

It hurt at first, but before I knew it, he was ramming me so hard, it was nothing but sinful pleasure! We kept going for probably a 1/2 hour and then finally when he had to blow his load, he did, up my ass, in his condom.

He ended up propping me up over his face and jerked my dick until I blew it all over his face. It was SOOOO hot and we ended up showering together. I was beyond excited and I still am... I almost creamed just thinking about it.

The best part, he was cool and agreed to take photos of it all, so I have something to look back on! :) -- I only wish he could've done some video! :) haha

Too funny not to pass on...

"I swear to drunk I'm not God!"

Just some random thoughts

I just visited my inspiration's blog, with the hope that he has returned from his sabbatical, but he hasn't yet. The author of Mutiny on the Bounty had a lot going on and decided not to write anymore until he could clear his head and promised to return this spring. Well spring has sprung and still no word from him. I surely hope everything is alright with him and I really can't wait to begin reading his new posts! He is, as always, an excellent writer and I surely recommend any and everyone to him! I hope all is well!!

Staying with almost the same thought... I am really missing Greece. I had actually found Mutiny on the Bounty while in Greece. I actually started this blog live from Greece! Funny story, I was horny and up one night by myself and I decided to search for some Greek hotties and that's how I stumbled upon Mutiny on the Bounty. After spending each night of the two weeks in Greece, practically hooked on his blog, reading every post, I fell in love and got inspired to do this blog. Just visiting his blog reminded me of what was in Greece and I really do miss it! I miss our friends there, the new friends I made there, the environment, the beauty, everything! I didn't get to tour the islands, so it's something I want to do and hope to do sometime in my life!

Thinking about the good times we had while in Greece makes me miss it even more. We actually went to this restaurant in Plaka where they had young dancers, male and female, perform traditional Greek dances from practically every island. It was sooo cool. I remember walking the streets of Athens, Plaka, and Acropolis at night with my friend. Everyone was just so friendly and welcoming!

I remember being so astonished at all the gorgeous men there and even more astonished at how TIGHT their pants were, whether jeans or dress slacks, they were TIGHT! It was so tight, that packages were noticeable and I was in my glory! LOL

Although the exchange rate SUCKED, I still did some good shopping. I got a really cool dagger which was replicated from the great battle of Troy. It was all just so cool!

I surely hope to go back some day, but with my recent financial struggles, I don't see that being a possibility!

Which leads me onto my other random thought...

It's been insane living in New York. This depression that the US is facing is killing me! Prices are WAYYY too high and the salaries aren't! I really could use a nice raise right about now, but I don't get my review until July/August-ish, which plainly sucks!

First and foremost, I was an idiot and wanted a new car. Instead of settling for a cheap Hyundai or something equal to that class, I went and splurged on an expensive car. My payments are basically around $650/month with insurance. It was the biggest mistake I ever made. It's good to have a reliable car and to have a nice one, but I's not worth the amount I'm paying!

I also got myself into some credit card trouble, so I'm attempting to resolve that as well. By the time I'm done, my paycheck is accounted for before I even receive it! I just can't take it anymore! I am trying to do work on the side, but there is just not enough! Heck, there is just not enough time in the day for anything! Going to school at night doesn't help either! Too much to do and no time to do it. I am trying to work overtime at my job, which is somewhat working out, but I'm barely making it.

It's so sad, my inspection had expired on my car since last month. I honestly forgot about it until my parents were riding my ass about it. So I called my mechanic to take care of it. It's going to cost me a mere $37... Would you believe that I don't even have that! I have to scrape up LITERALLY every last penny!

I just want to cry! I would love to be able to move out, get my own place (house preferably), and just be on the right path. I can't even do that! I can't afford to move out on my own, I don't have any savings, and everytime I try and get ahead, something comes up! I had set a goal to try and pay EVERYTHING off early this year and begin my transition onto the right path, but we're going on month 4 of the year and I'm no where close to that path. A major detour has occurred!

I'm just out of options! My credit score is horrible, so I can't get a loan... I can't get any credit cards and the ones I have, I'm just barely making the payments. I'm drowning and I need someone to rescue me!!

I am hoping my tax return is good this year, so that I can use the money to pay off everything! I really need/want a new laptop, preferably the MacBook Air, but when reality hits, it's a bitch! I was hoping to send my parents on a cruise for their 25th anniversary this year, but I surely can't do that! I honestly wish that those rebate checks would arrive! I'm only getting $600, but it's better than nothing! I wish they had approved Bush's original number, which was like $1200!! He wants to stimulate the economy... I, like many others, are going to use it toward paying off debt!! End of story!!

So am I the only one looking for the right bridge to jump from or is there someone out there experiencing the same or similar problems?

I think there is something wrong with me...

Ok... I don't know what's wrong with me, but I'm somewhat attracted to my cousin... Maybe it's because he's hung like a horse, or maybe because he's good looking, I don't know, but I've popped wood around him on more than one occasion.

Well in all honesty, since I was 13/14, I've been popping wood around him... Allow me to explain... He was and still is the "cool" cousin. He was always married, but his wife wasn't around a lot, mainly because of work. When I would have those ridiculous mandatory state exams, we would be able to leave once we had completed them. I would actually leave and walk to his house to hang out. He had an amazing collection of porn and he'd always have one on when I got there. So watching it would get me going, although it was straight porn. He'd always have a noticeable tent, hence the hung like a horse comment, and I'd always be curious. Being 13 and now exploring your sexuality makes you totally curious.

So with that said, I always had something for him. Maybe it would be that on numerous occasions when I was hanging out with him, he'd hop a shower and come out in a towel to see what's up... I don't know if he was looking to see if I had my first creaming or what... but he'd always come out. It wasn't like I was going to whip mine out and start at it. If he did, it would be another story...

So anyway, time has past now and now he has a son and whatever. It turned out that he worked late last night and was extremely tired, yet he came here with his wife and kid to hang out and drink with my father. They watched two movies, action flicks of course, and somewhere between movie 1 and movie 2, his wife was tired and went home. His son stayed back and ended up passing out on me (he's only 5). So my cousin decided to spend the night. I gave him some clothes to sleep in, but he only wore the shirt and went to sleep in his boxers.

All last night, I just kept fantasizing about him. I wanted to just go downstairs and just play with him... grab his junk and start playing with it until I was sucking it... I know this is probably nasty and sick to most, but for some reason, and I don't know why, but to me, it isn't.

I don't know...what do you make of this? Should I seek help or is it normal to have one fantasy about a family member... I mean... I'm so not fantasizing about my brother or dad, as I have read some people do, which is just... eww.. lol -- but is this just eww too??

Suggestions needed

So as I had mentioned, we are preparing to say goodbye to one of our close co-workers. I was thinking and figured that HOPEFULLY some people may respond to this post and give me some ideas.

You ever get those e-mails where they have photos of what co-workers have done to themselves, like wrap everything on their desk in foil, fill a cubicle with balloons, etc... I wanted to do something similar to my co-worker, but I just don't know what...

I am looking for suggestions... so hook it up!!

Is anyone out there?

So I was wondering... do I have any readers out there? Does anyone actually read this blog or am I just basically wasting my time? I put up polls and create posts looking for feedback and I get nothing. My e-mail address is posted on the blog for those who want to message directly, yet still nothing. I seriously hope that I'm not wasting my time... someone please respond!

Hello buddy!

So today was quite an interesting day. One of my close co-workers was in my office today talking about some ongoing issues and I happened to notice a bit of a bump in his pants. He was wearing some really nice, soft dress pants, kind of cream-colored. They weren't khakis, but those really dressy style pants. I thought that the brother had a bit of a hard-on, but throughout the day, I kept catching glances of his crotch, hopefully not too obvious, and the "bump" remained, only allowing me to come to the conclusion that my boy is definitely a horse-hung Italian-stallion!

I visited the previously acknowledged gay co-worker and mentioned it to him. He tried to catch a couple of glances and derived the same conclusion.

I had never looked at this guy in any type of gay/sexual way, but holy crap! He is married with child, but still, I'd ride it any day!! ;) LOL

I was so excited! Is that wrong??

Farewell to a Co-Worker

So there has been talk of one of my co-workers leaving for quite some time, but unfortunately the talk has become a reality. The VP of our department can be VERY difficult to deal with at times and mainly because of this, my co-worker has decided to leave and move on.

I am deeply saddened by this mainly because we have become so close in the past 3 years I've been working there. I had always been suspicious of his sexual orientation and a flag went off on my Gaydar, but I wasn't really sure. Then one day, a previous co-worker of his happened to be friends with a friend of mine and we all somehow met up and started talking. I threw out the name of the company I was working for and then all of a sudden, my co-worker's name was mentioned and the question of whether or not he was with the same boyfriend came up. Thus confirming my suspicions.

I had attempted to anonymously confront him on this website, doyouhaveasecret.com, or something like that, and he freaked out and contacted the company threatening to sue. They ended up releasing my e-mail address to him, which was supposedly kept confidential along with my IP address, and he, being the smart guy he was, put it all together and then e-mailed me with a few threats. I basically defended myself and stated how I did not intend to out him... yaadi yaa... and before I knew it, we were best of friends.

It was so nice to be able to come out to someone that I knew and saw everyday! He was out to his family and whatnot, but he wanted to stay in the closet when it came to his professional life. I had absolutely respected that and also begged for him not to say a word about me, since I was not out at all. Of course we, being so respectable, have kept each other's secret since.

We joke around a lot now and under our breath mentioned a few "gay-related" things as well and it's been absolutely great! I for once was able to speak freely about being gay and had someone who could relate.

Sadly, now he's leaving and I may not have that again. Of course I can call, but it's not going to be the same. I personally felt that he has become more of a mentor or brother to me and truthfully, he is like a big brother to me. He's always watching my back at work and has done nothing but prove to be the most trustworthy person.

I will truly miss you and I wish you the best on your future endeavorer! :)

Farewell to David #1

Well not much to my dismay, David Hernandez was voted off. I will admit that his last performance wasn't the greatest, but that Amanda Overmeyer chick should've been booted way before David. I am sure that a factor in America's decision had to deal with his history of being a stripper.

Sadly, this is the kind of thing that influences Americans and their decision making. Had we actually took the time to focus on what American Idol was about, maybe things would've been different.

David appeared on Good Day NY and Ellen and I happen to catch both interviews. The controversy about him being a stripper came up in both interviews and he openly admitted to it. That, to me, takes balls! He also had performed on Ellen and it was just beautiful. Thankfully, he made it into the top 12, so hopefully someone will scoop up this talented hottie and give him what he deserves, a record deal!!

Best of luck to you buddy! I wish only the best for you! (Also- I'm still waiting to see those photos! LOL ;) )

xoxo,
J

I LOVE her even MORE!

It goes almost without saying that I LOVE Ellen DeGeneres! I love everything about her. She is absolutely funny and just plain fun. I hope to fly out to California to see a taping of her show some day!

Well for those who haven't heard, and strangely enough, it hasn't really been broadcasted much on TV News, but there was a recent killing of a young man named Lawrence King, who was an openly gay 15 year old boy. The story is that he apparently had asked this homophobic guy to be his Valentine and sadly the guy he asked only responded with a bullet to Larry's head. Ellen talks about making the world a more open place and begs for acceptance. I can only do the same. Me, being closeted and all, it is hard to come out and hearing things like this happens discourages us from coming out even more. With that said, I hope that everyone isn't discouraged, but encouraged. I only state that you should take precaution as to where, when and whom you're coming out to.

Lawrence was openly gay, but he was not different from you or me. The guy he asked to be his Valentine was very close-minded. It was reported on NUMEROUS news websites that he had taunted Larry for a day or two before making the judgement to put a bullet in his head. As Ellen said, we need to teach everyone acceptance and show everyone that there are alternative things to do instead of pulling a gun on someone. TAKE A STAND AMERICA!

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UPDATE
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It is said that the young man who shot Lawrence "Larry" King is to be tried as an adult with the conviction of murder in the 1st degree as well as a hate crime. It is so sad because he is so young, but hopefully this will teach him a lesson.

Dreams REALLY do come TRUE!

Ok... so the controversy is over. He is confirmed gay and better yet, a stripper! I am really routing for Archuleta this year, but Mr. Hernandez is my 2nd pick! I said from the beginning that he was adorable and just plain gorgeous! I had only wished that he was gay and we would meet and disappear together to a tropical island... ok... I'm dreaming, but part of it came true! He is gay and I hope that he doesn't attempt to deny the allegations and just openly come out. Furthermore, I don't think that this "scandal" should affect people's views of him. He has a great voice and he is good looking (as Simon would say). Idol is about the singing, not a person's history. Wake up America! Don't be so close-minded! Because he is gay and stripped doesn't make him any less of a candidate for Idol. People who are respectable doctors or lawyers do things like pose for magazines to make the extra bucks to pay for their education. You don't know his situation or anything. Let's not stop voting for him because of his past or his sexual orientation. Get the word out to everyone, gay, bi or straight - DON'T BE SO CLOSE-MINDED.

PS: If anyone has got any photos of his "full-monty" days, as they claim on the news, please send them over. I'd LOVE to see!

The plan was... but...

So the plan was to launch the 31 days of March, where I'd have an entry for each day, but I already missed my first entry... and now technically my second, since its now 12:05AM ---

Total suckage on my part! Well I guess it's all with a reason... I am going on a mini-vacation to FL soon, so I'm sure I wouldn't be able to make it here everyday during my time off.

Anyway, I feel that I've been due for a vacation for quite some time now. Things are changing at my job and I'm not sure I'm too comfortable with these changes. I was hoping to work hard and get promoted to a position which is now filled by some new person who is supposed to start a day before I return from my mini-vacation... Rumor has it that he may be eventually promoted to supervisor, which means that I'd have to report to him. MEANWHILE... I'm the one that is going to train him. My other team member is so clueless when it comes to certain things that I had the feeling and just this past Friday, I was asked to prepare for training.

Such bullshit, but what can one do without a piece of paper that you pay THOUSANDS for that simply states that you have successfully satisfied society in that they feel you've earned the right to be treated as an equal in the corporate world since you devoted your time and especially your money to an establishment deemed proper for such a decision... So without my extremely expensive piece of paper, I don't see any type of promotion until I get it.

Please don't get me wrong, the job is great. Great people to work with, excellent benefits, and exceptional pay ... for my age... but I would like to get the title I feel I deserve. I would like to make a bit more money than I am... so that I can feel comfortable and not just get by from paycheck to paycheck. I want to have a savings so that I can get a house of my own and become independent. Unfortunately with the cost of living in New York, I don't see it at all possible! Not one bit!

Ok... so I've gotten a little off track, ranting about my job and whatnot, but I must stop now and see about packing some things for my trip and eventually getting to bed to go to work in the morning!

So with that said, adios to the 31 days of March idea... LOL

... I think I need to find a nice rich boy for myself! ;) ....

xoxo,
Jared