Random thoughts (Post #30--- Woo Hoo)

Is it me or is February dragging? I feel like I've been stuck in this month forever! It totally doesn't help that b/c of the leap year that we have an extra day!

I was wondering... what if someone is born on Feb. 29? What do you do when there is no leap year and Feb. 29 doesn't exist? It'd be cool to be born on such a day, but at the same time, possibly suck!

So I rented Breach last night on Movies-On-Demand. It wasn't a bad movie. I thought it was actually a good movie, considering it's PG-13 rating. I liked it. Hottie McHot Hot, Ryan Phillipe, was the star and he was cute as ever, so that was a plus! ;)

So I guess that's it for now... not much more to say....

Oh! American Idol --- I was satisfied with those who were eliminated. Good job America! My boy D. Arch. is still in the game, strong as ever, and I'm so proud! Not to mention that Mr. Hernandez is in it as well... good for him... I love him and his performance!

Go boys!!! :) :)

-- Ok... that's really it for now... peace out...

xoxo,
J

Do you ever wish?

Do you ever wish you could just leave? Escape and go away forever to a place where you could get a new start... no one knows you... and you can be as free as you want to be? Not a worry in the world... just free to live your life as you please...

I sometimes wish I could get a new start, get reliable friends, actually get a true "best friend", one you can count on through thick and thin, start my own family and, as mean as it sounds, forget the members I currently face... I wish at times that the hurt I experience on a daily basis could just go away... I would love to wake up just for once happy instead of regreting my pre-destined day...

I often think deep about my current position in my life and I always question what I've accomplished. I'm 22 years old and I've run myself into some debt, of which I am now pulling myself out of... My credit score sucks, so I can't get any loans to actually fufill my dreams of owning a business or even moving out on my own. I have the burden of paying a shitload of money for my car each month plus my insurance. I've got bills to pay and don't have much savings at all.

Now I know that this is all my fault and that it was what I had chosen. My actions came with its consequences. I've learned from them, but I just don't see a way out! I would love to have my own place, date potential candidates, possibly own a condo or something by 25, but seriously... who am I kidding?

This has been dwelling on my chest for some time because it was never one of my proudest moments in life, but I felt it was time to get that out.

Continuing with my thought of "digging deep"... I look at other people's MySpace (I would say my friends' MySpace... but are they really?) and I see how high school buddies stayed buddies and are close and hanging out and always there for each other... I then turn to my life and see nothing. I was thinking the other day... if I was in some serious need of help or I needed a friend to be there, who would I turn to? I don't have anyone I could think of that I could turn to... no one at all. I always tend to be the "savior" to others because that's who I am, but who would be my "savior"? Who would drive out of their way because I was too drunk to drive home to ensure I arrived home safely??

Everyone says that they're my friend, but answer this.. If I were to move out of the state... clear across the country to California.. would you keep in touch? By in touch, I am talking about just calling me to say hello or see what's up...

I am falling asleep... I will finish this another time.

Fyi- I'm not ungrateful or anything.. I know that there is people out there wishing to have a family and whatnot, it's just the pain I experience is sometimes not at all worth it... at least I think so.

American Idol Top 24

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Back row, from left: Alexandrea Lushington, Robbie Carrico, Jason Castro, Danny Noriega (striped shirt), Brooke White, Amanda Overmyer, Michael Johns, David Cook (bandana), Luke Menard and Carly Smithson (standing far right).

Bottom row, from left: Chikezie Eze, Colton Berry, Asia’h Epperson, Kady Malloy (seated, black dress), Joanne Borgella, Ramiele Malubay, David Hernandez (seated, front), Amy Davis, Alaina Whitaker, Syesha Mercado, Jason Yeager, David Archuleta (seated), Garrett Haley and Kristy Lee Cook.

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So the Top 24 were revealed earlier tonight and they are pictured above! I am quite excited about this year's American Idol. It looks really promising! EVERYONE is exceptionally talented and I wish the best for everyone!

I will tell you right now that I am loving David Hernandez. He is one hot hunk of GORGEOUS man! He has a great voice, very pleasing and natural! He doesn't over do it and he's a very quiet and content gentlemen. I love him and wish the best for him and hope he gets far! He seems truly genuine and although he's not my top contestant, I will send a few votes his way!

My heart truly goes out to David Archuleta... He's so talented and has such an extraordinary voice for a 16 year old. He is absolutely gorgeous and I think he has everything going for him. I believe that Simon said it right... "...You have so many things going for you... you're young, good looking, you're likable, and you've got a great voice!..."

I look forward to hearing more from him and I truly hope that he is the next American Idol. Hopefully everyone will stop the age discrimination and look at the actual fact that he is a talented man and can and should go far in life with music! I can't wait... my vote will be for him!

Valentine plans?

So I was pondering as usual... what does everyone think about Valentine's Day? Do you think it's all just pisha and a bunch of "hooey" or do you think it's really worth something?

To me, it's just a bit fake. Why is there one day dedicated to love? If you truly love someone, it should be celebrated everyday and not just on one specific day. To me it's just a day that florists and chocolate makers can markup their products 500% and make a shitload of money! Don't get me wrong, if anyone wants to buy me some flowers or chocolates, I will by far be excited and welcoming toward it, but don't expect me to buy into it as much.

Ironically, I get flowers delivered to my mom and close aunts every year, but other than that, that's it... I'm not about the commercial end of thing... I'm about the real true meaning of it all. PURE LOVE!

Let me know what you think...

One of my favorites....

One day you come ask me "Which is more important? Me or your life?"
I say "my life" and you'll walk away sadly without knowing that "You are my life"

Go Giants!!

I normally don't follow football, but this year's Superbowl was one worth following!! The Giants made it all the way there and won!! Go Giants!!! Holla!!!!

One more victory for New York!! Woot woot!!! Now it's the Yankees turn!!!!!!!!!

Yeahhh New York!!

Guitar Hero

So I finally caved in and decided to buy Guitar Hero III Legends of Rock for the Wii. At first when it came out, like most games, it didn't really intrigue me. I guess seeing and hearing all of the commotion about the game, I began to get interested.... I saw Ellen play it a few times on her show and I became more and more intrigued, until finally, today I just decided to run to my local Best Buy, in hopes they had it and purchased it. Thanks to all those who got me Best Buy gift cards! I ended up only paying like $10 out of pocket! Holla!!

So anyway, I put the game in, went through the tutorials and then began rockin'. It is actually a fun game. It's really a hand-eye coordination type of game. I really like it! I can't wait to get up in the morning and rock it out again! LOL --- I haven't decked out my guitar yet, but I will soon... eBay! here I come!!!

So for those who have been contemplating getting it or not, I say get it! If they had rock band for Wii, I would've gotten that, because I love the drums! I have PS2, but I refuse to buy games for it... LOL! I waited outside of Walmart in the FREEZING cold for the damn Wii, so therefore I am going to use it to its maximum!!

That's it for now... good night!!

xoxo,
Jared