First day of classes

So I attended my first class tonight at my school and I was very disappointed! Well somewhat... I actually learned some things tonight! Imagine that! I actually learned something in Linear Algebra!!

So anyway, I was a bit disappointed with the people in the class. It consisted of primarily women at first and then the men finally began pouring in, but honestly I had rather they hadn't. Two older Indian guys game in, then some strange black guys... There was one semi-cute guy, but again, the key word there was "semi" --

So with that said, that's all I have to say for now. I'm going back to watching 'House' and maybe continue my thought.

Just for the record, I'm not as close-minded as this entry may appear. I can promise you that!

What is most intriguing about men?

So I was thinking... what intrigues you about a man? Assuming you're gay OR if you're a straight girl, what attracts you a man?

I was seriously thinking about this and honestly, for me, it's the figure of a man. The figure I'm thinking of is best depicted by the Greeks. The chiseled man nicely buff, not too extravagant, but defined. A nice size penis attached and just pure beauty. Please don't get me wrong, I think all men are beautiful, no matter the size, shape, or anything else, but when I think of a man, that's what comes to mind.

I was watching a porn flick the other day ::BLUSHES::, "The Shape of a Man", and it was just gorgeous, chiseled men all stripping down to nothing and just posing and flexing all nude. There was no jerking off or anything, just shots of the guys showing off their hot bodies! It turned me on so much!! I had realized that just watching their masculine bodies was nothing but pure beauty and I got so horny watching them!

So, I ask, what turns you onto men?

Playing with your monkey?

So I was wondering how often do you "play with your monkey" ? and how big is your load each time? average, large, or eh...?

Vote on the poll on the right, but for those who don't know what that means, it means "How often do you jerk off?" haha!

To answer my own question, I do it about 2x a day... and they're from average to large... let me know!

Total Hottie!!

Ok... so Christopher Gorham plays Henry on Ugly Betty... let me just say that there is NOTHING ugly about him! He's absolutely gorgeous!!

There was more to this post, but at the time of the original post, I was a bit preoccupied with watching Ugly Betty with my mom. I absolutely love that show and didn't want to miss a moment!

I unfortunately don't remember what the heck I had to say. I mean, besides the above capture being the best episode to date... lol... I really don't remember what I was going to say. I'm just going to go and enjoy this photo a little more! ;)

Reflecting on the past

So I was thinking about my first time the other day... I did everything that the "experts" warn you about... I had met someone online through either Craigslist or AOL Chat... I can't remember... anyway....

I met someone online. agreed to meet with them at the mall, I went there, had lunch with him and had a great time! As he walked me to my car, he had an obvious boner and he wanted to show me it, but there were some Mexican guys chilling two cars away from mine and he couldn't, but i knew he was huge just from that bulge! We had then arranged to meet at his apartment sometime later on. I was of course blessed that everything turned out great. He wasn't psychotic, nor a pedophile (I was 16), and he didn't want to rape me.

So everything turned out so well. He was gorgeous as ever and such a sweetheart. Too bad he was 20 and I was 16 and naive. I was so scared, considering it was my first time doing anything gay with a stranger and behind my parents back, and I was in no way ready to commit myself to anyone, which is another regret... but anyway, we finally worked out a time to meet up at his place. I left my summer job with a boner... drove in an hour of traffic with a boner, and as I approached his place, I began to slightly get flaccid because I had to pee. But when I pulled up in front of his house and walked up the walkway to the door, it was instant bonification again!

I rang the bell and he came to the door. I looked at him, he looked at me and then invited me in. I asked him if I could use his restroom for a moment because I had to pee. He was like, sure, it's this way and he led me to the bathroom. He had asked me if I would mind him helping me, and I said no, please do. I was of course, so hard that I couldn't piss, but he grabbed a hold of my cock and proceeded to point it in the direction of the bowl. After about 30 seconds, we realized that this was going no where, so I pulled my pants back up and proceeded to his bedroom.

He had a small bed, suitable for just one person. We both sat on it while the TV was going. I was so shy and meek, he seemed confused as to where to start with me. I looked at him and finally got up and said, how are we going to do this? I began to undress down to my boxers and undershirt. He went straight for my cock, rubbing it and playing with it through my boxers. We started with some kissing and slowly moved down to our cocks. I think I was the first to become exposed. He played with my hairy balls for quite some time. I was so eager to see his dick that I just went for it. I unwrapped his big ass cock and was so shocked to see how nice and big and thick it was. I began mimicking what I had seen in the porn films... sucking and doing my best to not look like an amateur.

We fooled around for a long time sucking on each other. I finally asked if he would fuck me? He was hesitant and claimed that he doesn't do that on the first "date" but I proceeded to beg until he said ok. He didn't have any condoms, but what the hell, I was 16 and invincible, right? He lubbed up his cock and my tight pussy hole and then began the insemination into my anus. It was so painful and no matter how much he tried, he couldn't get it in. I was too tight and in way too much pain. It sucked and he just blew his load on his chest. He asked me to blow my load on him, which I did. I was so amazed as to how much cum came out of me. I was like a freakin' fountain just pumping out cum. When I finally stopped, we had cleaned up, I hung out for a few minutes and then left.

It was the most amazing experience I had ever had! Now that I am so much more experienced, I hope to take on that cock one day. We're both exceptionally close friends and I hope to take control of his 'anaconda' (hehe) the next time I see him!

Just missed it...

So coming in at 19 posts (excluding this one) -- I missed my small goal of 22 blogs... But considering I've been extremely busy, it doesn't surprise me. I am trying to get back to the gym more often than before, I've sported a new hairstyle, and I'm beyond overloaded at work... insane!

So on a sidebar, I was listening to our local radio station and they were talking about this website called Hot Chicks with Douche Bags... It turns out that it is actually a fellow blogger who posts all these photos and videos of some seriously hot looking women and some even hotter men. Some aren't, but most are. From perusing the posts, it seems to me that the owner is a first class hater. I don't know the real story about the owner, but ever post seems to be nothing but negative toward the guys. Some guys are genuinely cute and appear like just a normal person, but the owner of the website, who creates these posts, seem to just rip on them because they're good looking? I don't get it. Because they worked really hard to tone their bodies and now they're proud to show off their hard work, you're going to ostracize them? That's a bit messed up...

Well, don't take my word for it... take a look and let me know what you think... click..

So moving on... My best friend... I've always had a thing for him, but we always just joke around. He obviously doesn't know that I'm gay or even slightly bent, but I do try and not make it obvious. Like I said, we always joke around and refer to his manhood as the "anaconda" -- of course inferring that it's huge... I've seen the bulge, and it's big... believe me..

But getting to what I was originally getting at, I went to his house the other day and I was just chilling watching tv while I waited for him to get out of the shower... I just happen to be on the floor trying to get his PS3 to work, when he walked out in nothing but a skimpy towel and he was like... "I'm sorry to keep you waiting.. oh are you trying to get the PS3 to work?" I looked up and from my angle, I could see the 'Anaconda' and his two friends... I was so pleased, yet embarrassed for him. He had realized what had happened and apologized... I was like... no apology needed at all!! LOL

Well below are some photos from that blogger's website... they're hot twins... why not??

I can't hold back

So as embarrassing as this may be for a 21 year old to admit, I am a fan of High School Musical. Silly, isn't it?

I am actually really loving the song "You Are The Music In Me" from the 2nd movie. I could honestly pass on the story and everything else, but this song is really great. I got the DVD to see the extras and they have a section that has music videos from around the world. In Mexico they had a girl and guy sing the song "You Are The Music In Me" in Spanish. It's even more beautiful in Spanish than it is in English. Since Spanish is my second language, I have even more of a love for the song.

The fact that the guy (Robert) who is singing is an absolute hottie had nothing to do with my decision. LOL ... promise!!

Well here is the video for your enjoyment.

A small goal

So in commemoration of my 22nd birthday on Sunday, I am hoping to have at least 22 blogs written and posted, so send me some love and some topics to discuss.

I know I don't have a large audience, but for those listening, please send me a message at jared@aclosetedgayboy.com and let me know.

Thanks for reading and being there!

Just a thought...

Do you ever regret the choices you've made in life? I admit that I regret a few things that I've done, but the things I regret the most, I've learned the most from.

What exactly am I talking about? Killing someone? Rape? Segregation? Um... no! God! I'm not psychotic! But seriously, I was referring to something like me getting plastic happy and racking up credit card bills way above myself and totally killing my credit at the age of 20.

Again, I regret it, but I've learned from it.

Well back to my original thought... I had always had a passion for computing and doing things on the computer. I'm not a dork or anything... promise! I knew that from the start that I wanted to have a career with computers. I didn't know exactly what, but I knew that it was there and I worked hard until I got there.

Looking back now, I regret that I was the meek, shy boy that everyone practically walked on. I really wish that I pushed myself more to be outgoing at a younger age. When I did, I think it was too late. It was my freshmen year of high school and to me, it was too late. I became a pretty popular and involved guy, but I never made homecoming king (or queen.. haha) or even prom king... not that I was necessarily going for that..

But I have always had a passion for music. From mixing it to attempting to sing it. I had tried out my senior year for the last school production and honestly... I wanted to just be in it so that I could say that I was in it. They still required that I sing as a try out, so while being busy doing a million other things, I made the time and learned a song moments before I had to go in and sing. I went it, gave it my all, and I was told that I should try out for a main part b/c I had an amazing voice. I was too shy, so I passed and settled for backup.

I am now looking back and really regret that I didn't pursue that. I wish I had. I love singing and I am beginning to reconsider my choice in life, but to me, I'm too late. I'm going to be 22 soon and I need to settle down and start saving my money and get my own place and begin to build on my life. I wish I could attempt to try singing and whether it fail or not, I could say that I had explored the option, but for me, I believe it's too late.

It really sucks growing up. I know as a kid, you look forward to growing up so that you can stay up later, learn to drive, get your own car, and eventually legally drink. I can tell you right now, I'd give it all up to be a kid again. It was a time of innocence and no responsibility. I really don't know how one can accept just "growing up" ... It's forced on us by society and everyone must eventually, but how do you just accept that everything that you have known must now be forgotten and you must now focus on growing into the model man or woman?

I'm getting older and I can't deal... that's probably just the whole reason for this... 22 is young, I know, but it's the age where it's all down hill... you hit that 21 age and now you look forward to getting older, 30, 40, 50, and then... 60? death?

Arrgghhh... I need to stop this thinking process and just enjoy the music that I love singing...

xoxo,
Jared

So when did he grow up?

Ok, so this is apparently OLD news, but it's news to me! Good ol' Harry Potter has grown up? He's apparently went all nude on us and is starring in Peter Shaffer's controversial play Equus in England? Oh how I wish I lived in England!!!

I really wasn't so interested when I began reading this, but when I saw the photos of how the nerdy Harry Potter grew up into this gorgeous hunk-o-man, I almost blew a load. I was lucky enough to find a photo of Daniel Radcliffe sporting his goods as well. I seriously creamed!

Ok, so I'm a bit... stereotypical, sorry! I thought the movies were good, but never really sparked any interest in Daniel, but after seeing the real man behind the costume, I am just wowed!! They're below, so enjoy and tell me what you think!!

Xoxo,
Jared

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My utmost favorite show...

So it's no news that Will & Grace is now over. It's very sad, and it was even much sadder when it happened in 2006. I've come to own Seasons 1-7 on DVD, since that's all they've released. Season 8, the final season, is scheduled for 2008, so I can't wait. Once I get that, then I can finally get the season finale DVD and my collection will be complete.

I absolutely love this show, if you couldn't tell already, and I'd highly recommend it to anyone, gay or straight. It's all written so well and I hate to admit it, but I do use some of their jokes every-so-often around the office and amongst my friends. It's all so funny not to...

I just stayed up watching the third DVD of W&G Season 7... I have one more to go... I am telling you... it's just amazing. They had an episode where Grace, Karen, and Jack all discovered the way of Kabbalah... which I've just learned is something Jewish, since I had to look up the spelling... I thought it was something Indian... lol

Anyhoot... so there are so many memorable scenes from Will & Grace... I am just going to post a few... so enjoy and comment away!

Milk, Milk, Lemonade





Whipped cream





Finally... Some Bloopers

Video found on Mutiny on the Bounty

So Stratis from Mutiny on the Bounty... my inspiration (can't say it enough)... he posted this video that he found on YouTube depicting how people skin animals, like dogs, for fur coats! It was extremely graphic and totally eye opening. I would post it here, but I think it's too graphic.

I do, however, encourage you to go to his blog and view the video. If the video had been removed by YouTube, which we know they're infamous for... Let me know... I had downloaded it in case this happened and I will upload it to blogger if I must.

So, check it out, become disgusted, and do something about it! Send it to your fur-wearing friends and make sure the word is spread. Something this graphic and harsh will hopefully wake everyone up! I watch this and think of my brother's dog... and wonder... that could be Scrappy... it's so hard to watch!!!

Here's the direct link to the video: Click to become sick

xoxo,
J

New year resolutions?

So I was curious to know what your resolution may be... I'm just curious... if anyone is out there and is willing to respond, please do by commenting! I'm all ears...

What would I like to seriously do?
1) Get a place of my own
2) Become financially secure
3) Get promoted at work
4) Get the most extremely hard six pack that I've been trying to achieve for years!
5) Do some more charitable work for the sick, needy, and poor
6) Do more to help the environment and become a little greener
7) Become a better blogger

Well that's it for now... let me know...

xoxo,
J

Reflecting on the year past...

So I was doing a little reflecting on 2007, and though I shouldn't complain because it can be far more worse, I am still going to... lol

For sure, it has been one of my better years... No one in my family died, which is a first for quite some time. From 2002 until 2007, it was like a plague had been bestowed upon my family. I was losing family members all over the place. Thankfully it wasn't any of my immediate family, but still, it was family.

My job has been a roller coaster of numerous levels of happiness and anger. One minute I'm quite content and the next they do something so stupid that I can't stand it and I want to just quit. I honestly deserve a promotion or at least a job title change, but I haven't received it. I got a decent raise, but it was mostly a market value raise, where they assess the current market conditions and then determine how my pay increase can be substantial enough just to survive in the current market. If anyone has been paying attention, the American market on the whole is just horrible! Our dollar value decreased so much that now Canada is higher than us... nothing against Canadians, but how sad is that for America?

So anyway... moving on... I almost practically blurted out that I was a big Mo... at two major family functions and at a wedding where I was so tempted to french the groom... I'm such a whore... right? Eww...

So... I did get to do some amazing traveling this past year by going to Greece! Heck... if it wasn't for that trip, I would've never been so turned on by the Greek hotties and have the need to search for some Greek porn and stumble upon the Mutiny blog and then have the inspiration to create my own... woah!! that was quite long... anyway... back to the traveling... I did get to go to Greece and stop in Germany.... for the layover... I met a hottie from Milan who was connecting on the same flight as me while returning back to New York. It turns out he was meeting his girlfriend from Spain, who he met on the Internet, for the holidays ... in New York! They both never been and I so wanted to give him my number for him to call me, but something stopped me... I hope they had fun though...

I did get to go to Florida for a while, which was nice. I got myself piss drunk to the point where I don't remember half of the night and my friend had to find me in the bathroom... not throwing up, but sitting down, trying to make the room stop spinning... haha... good times...

Anyway... it's been basically a crazy year and I'm happy it's over... for the most part. If I could, I'd do it all over again! This year, I plan on getting my six pack, travel to Paris or somewhere else exotic and/or new, or possibly return to Greece and tour the Islands, since I didn't get to.

Either way, I am going to try and make the best of it... and hopefully get out on my own... I can maybe trade in my expensive car for a more practical and affordable one and actually have money for rent... F'in New York is so damn expensive... and imagine that I wanted to live in the actual city, where rent starts at $2800, if you're lucky... for a studio!!! holy shit!!

Well... in closing... I would like to say Cheers to 2008! I hope everyone had a happy, healthy, and prosperous year and I hope that everyone can accomplish their goals!

xoxo.
J

Happy 2008!

Well Happy New Year to all! Best wishes for a Happy, Safe, and Healthy New Year!
I hope everyone enjoys their new year, drunk or sober! ;)


Lots of love,
Jared